| conclusion of saves the day tour: leg one. |
[11.01.05 | 1:55 AM] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 sleepy |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
MxPx - What's Mine Is Yours |
] |
tonight was perfection. the venue and its inhabitants were pretty stupid, but i absolutely love when things go as planned. no rushing, no worrying. it was just awesome. and listening to mxpx on the way home definitely added to the excitement. saves the day, waffle house, and wawa? yeah. my life = <3
believe it or not, i have over half of this documented in a private journal entry. you know, if anyone cares when i do get around to posting it.
ps: "befuddled" is the word of the season. get into it.
|
|
| holy shit. |
[10.27.05 | 12:26 AM] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
sleepy |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Saves the Day - Wednesday the Third |
] |
i'm not a teenager anymore.
that's fucked up.
|
|
| "ALLSTARME." |
[10.26.05 | 9:26 AM] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
sleepy |
] |
saves the day show number three of six on this tour was last night.
it was amazing. i didn't try pushing my way into the front (i didn't feel like getting into my millionth fight). i stood in the middle, and danced with a ton of kids; including my partner-in-crime, parker. everyone danced, (almost) everyone sang along. everyone's fingers were in the air. and for the first time in a very long time, it felt like it used to. back when they weren't just songs, they were anthems. i have a feeling a lot of kids grew out of saves the day to pursue whatever scene they were dying to be a part of. these songs always have and always will mean something to me, but last night, they seemed to mean just as much to everyone else. i haven't seen chris look so happy to be on a stage in a very, very long time.
and then, on the train home, there was an adorable boy that was sitting next to and across from me on the opposite side of the bench. when i first sat down, we made eye contact and legitimately smiled at each other for a good five seconds or so. when i left, we smiled at each other while i was standing and he sat. and our eyes met as i walked past his window walking down the platform. it felt like a movie, and honestly made my night. but it also devastates me that i'll never see him again.
plans for today? go to class, take my sociology midterm, come home, nap, and then document what i've been doing with my life.
tomorrow is my birthday, and celebration plans are in the works for sometime within the next week or two.
i hope that you're okay, even though i'm dying.
|
|
| saves the day - 2 down, 4 to go. |
[10.24.05 | 1:24 PM] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 happy |
] |
i have to go to class like, now.
but this weekend was amazing. there are few things more exhilirating than your hero knowing how much he means to you. nothing has never, or will ever, mean so much to me. no one will ever mean so much to me.
adventures, hugs, eye contact, beaches, boardwalks, wawa, lots of coffee, amazing chicken sandwiches. and the madness has merely just begun.
i love seeing you smile.
|
|
| I'm always gonna push it away... |
[10.20.05 | 1:50 AM] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
sleepy |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Champion - Different Directions |
] |
1. Open a music player
2. Go to 'all music'/'library'.
3. Hit shuffle/repeat/randomise.
4. Find photos of the first 10 artists/bands that come up (no repeats and no cheating).
5. Have people guess who the artists/bands are. (no cheating and looking at the source codes or anything.)
6. Paste this in your journal and do it too, so I can have fun guessing as well
( If you guys don't get some of these, I'll think you're dumb... )
Full updates on marathon and my week to come. Tonight was a night of firsts - my first time eating at Chipotle, and my first time seeing Death Cab for Cutie. Both were amazing.
|
|
| all i ever wanted was to not be alone. |
[10.16.05 | 12:46 AM] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
sleepy |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
American Nightmare - AM/PM |
] |
so day one of the tower of tomorrow radio marathon is complete. everyone that is spending the night is just hanging around the mall. kids are still doing shows, obviously, and most people are playing games. we just finished playing a little bit of poker; i hope we play some more later because it's undoubtedly the only thing that will keep me awake.
the day wasn't nearly as bad or as stressful as i was expecting. i got here a little after 8:00, and everything seemed pretty well organized. bex and i did our show at 4:00 with minimal screwups, except i was mumbling like an idiot. don't i always? after our show, we went on a celebratory carousel ride. we primarily hung out at the "cool kids table" for most of the day, which includes bex, brian, joanne, rich, and me. we found amusement for a good part of the day. rob, george, and melissa visited. lauren was working from 4-10, so we visited her and hung out after she got out of work. met up with garrett and vicki briefly at applebee's. also saw corey from my summer class, he's lovely.
tomorrow from 8am-1pm, 4/5 of the cool kids table will be at lowe's in piscataway, which is basically our secondary station for the weekend. hopefully we'll do well there. last i heard, we were over 17,000. not ideal, but most certainly not bad.
today was full of fun, food, laughs...and of course, sleepiness. i am going to go find other ways to occupy my time. i am beginning to think right now, and it's making me sad. sadness is the last thing i need when i am going to be surrounded by people and such for the next 16+ hours
|
|
| Tower of TODAY! |
[10.15.05 | 7:01 AM] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
excited |
] |
Today is the big day.
My beloved radio station - 90.3 RLC-WVPH FM in Piscataway (Rutgers - Livingston College) will be hosting the Tower of Tomorrow radio marathon at Woodbridge Mall in Woodbridge, NJ.
This event has been in planning stages for years, and now it is finally upon us. Our goal is to raise $60,000 dollars to build a new tower. Our current tower is located in the valley of Piscataway High School, which is below sea level. As you can imagine, that's not good for a radio station. If we reach our goal, our new tower will expand our signal by 85%, allowing us to gain up to 200,000 potential new listeners.
And this weekend, we will be taking over the mall for 36 hours; from 8:00 AM on Saturday 'til 8:00 PM on Sunday. We will be broadcasting live. There will be giveaways, prizes, live performances, and more. Please stop by and check us out. I'd love to see all of your pretty faces, and it's sure to be a good time!
For more information, and to hear a live webstream of the event, please visit thecore.rutgers.edu.
If you'd like to donate even a dollar to my cause, you can do so here.
Thanks guys, hope to see you sometime this weekend!
Love,
Jess
PS: Blacktop Memories (my show with my lovely co-host Becca) will be broadcasting LIVE from the mall TODAY (Saturday) from 4-5 PM. Check it out either at 90.3 FM or at the Core website!
|
|
| "i love the mosh pit!" -girl at nft in philly. |
[10.13.05 | 1:50 AM] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
sleepy |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Copeland - Take Care |
] |
so, my week has essentially been at a steady decline since monday night. even though i feel like shit, it's causing me to do a lot of self-examination, which is most likely a good thing. i just wish i could've done this before making all of the mistakes i've made in the past month or more. definitely time for a change, i'd say. hopefully for the better. the self-examination stuff still applies, but it's amazing what a picture of a shirtless dude will do to improve my mood. this isn't as provocative as it sounds, hahaha.
it's been raining for the past few days, and it's supposed to rain through the end of the week. i have a feeling the weather, in addition to real shit, is a huge factor in what is getting me so down this week. i've also been catching the clock at 11:11 a lot lately, but it doesn't seem to be doing anything. it's just a number on the clock, and a really good stryder song. i guess i'll take whatever hope i can get out of insignificance. that's how it always works.
there has been some distraction from the shittiness, however. i went to nintendo fusion tour with on tuesday and monday, and had a really awesome time while it lasted. but i was floating on cloud nine on the drive home from philly, haha.
let's see...on sunday night, i went to see comeback kid and strung out at obsessions. my new magellean was no help finding the train station to pick up barrie, so we basically found it ourselves. got to obsessions while valiant thorr was on...probably one of the most hilarious displays i have ever witnessed. mike and i played some sweet mortal kombat. comeback kid was really good, except they could've played more older stuff. i guess i should've expected that, but i don't know the new album at all, so i only really thoroughly enjoyed three songs of the set. it was disgustingly hot in the room, so during bane, i sat in the back and played some more mortal kombat. watched the first five songs of strung out because i absolutely needed to hear "gear box," and i was soooo glad i did. they sounded really good, and it was of course awesome to see barrie in her state of euphoric bliss. i'll be there in eight days. after the show, barrie got her long awaited picture with jason and proceeded to flip out in my car. took her to the train, and mike and i went to nautilus for dinner. soooo good.
thankfully, i didn't have class on monday because of columbus day. i didn't have a car though, because it wouldn't start on saturday. around 5:00, lauren and i ventured down route 1 in my mom's car to go to nintendo fusion tour at the electric factory. pretty uneventful ride down for the most part. when we got there, the line was HUGE, but by time we parked in a sketchy ass dark alley, we didn't have to wait. i still love the electric factory, it's so nice and big and air conditioned. not to mention nft rules because you can play video games throughout the show. i rocked mario kart on nintendo ds. panic! at the disco was really, really good. it's safe to say that i am officially at the disco, but i will NEVER be jessica! at the disco. i don't care about boys night out, and never will. motion city soundtrack is always good and cute and fun. the starting line sounded really good, and played a decent enough set. "given the chance" is my staple, but lauren and i hoped for "hello houston" and "autography." fall out boy was soooooo good. i thought their setlist was really good, and they do this really lame two-act set, but it's cute and fits with the theme of "from under the cork tree." they bring out my inner 12 year-old like no other. their stage setup was awesome, too. i had so much fun during their set. except there were these girls behind us for a portion of the set...YELLING lyrics to whatever songs they knew, and i had suuuch a bad headache that went away after they left. and of course, since i am 12, we waited outside for pete. it was cold and rainy, and there was this girl who was scarily obsessed with vinny from socratic. it was kind of hilarious. pete called me "sweetheart" and i basically died, hahaha. and apparently, i am going to be given "cool stuff"...hahaha. i was basically floating after the show. lauren and i went to mpd for a post-show meal, and i got home late. that's when i started getting really upset, which resulted in a grand total of about 3.5 hours of sleep.
classes on tuesday...i had calculus and italian, i skipped bio because it honestly would've been unsafe for me to drive home. mom and i went to lunch at panera, and then picked lauren up to catch a train to new york from metropark. me the weirdest fucking lady ever at the train station. we were standing there, and she started telling us her dilemma about how she had to be at work, but she caught the wrong train, yadda yadda yadda. then she randomly says, "i think i'm pregnant again." and i could feel lauren and i wanting to stare at each other in alarm. then the woman was like, "you know how that feels, right? like there's something kicking around inside of you?" WHAT THE FUCK, SERIOUSLY?! it was soooo weird. we talked to her until the train arrived, and i was glad to get away from her. train was superpacked. i paid the taxi driver in sacagawea coins. fuck that bitch, get out of my wallet.
roseland is a really nice, big venue. sound wasn't too good, but it seemed like a cool place nonetheless. only saw a couple of panic! songs. didn't care about bno again. mcs was good again. the starting line didn't sound nearly as good as they did on monday, but they played "autography," so i forgave them. fall out boy sounded and performed extremely well, but i had more fun on monday night i'd say. we were pretty far back at roseland, i guess. there were some dumbass hoes there, too.
after the show, lauren and i caught a cab and headed right to penn station. primo! cappucino, as usual. got back to edison around midnight, and after a coke slurpee and dropping lauren off, we got home around 12:30 and i actually got a substantial amount of sleep. that was awesome.
class today wasn't bad at all. nothing really happened, except i watched "peggy sue got married" and ate chinese food. i'll never stop wishing that i had someone to call my own. well, until it happens, at least.
i really need to go to sleep. but just know i started off this entry really upset, and now i feel tons better.
|
|
| ouch. |
[10.11.05 | 9:33 AM] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 scared |
] |
last night was honestly amazing. i'm excited for the trading of "cool stuff."
but then i got home, did the usual computer routine. because of that, i got a grand total of three and a half hours of sleep. toss and turned, heart racing all night. i can't bear the thought of being without you. i probably should consider this before i pull my bullshit. i hate me.
there is the sound of a cat in agony in my house, and i am scared.
school's going to suck.
|
|
| respect. |
[10.10.05 | 4:57 PM] |
|
practice what you preach.
|
|
| this warrants its own post. |
[10.04.05 | 5:09 PM] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
excited |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Saves the Day, all day urrday. |
] |
i wrote that title with only the intention of posting what has now been halted to the second best news i've heard all day:
today, i got my first calculus test back. i got a 93 on the test, and my average is a 91. how the fuck did this happen? i don't have any idea, but it was amazing and i hope i can maintain it somewhere in that area.
now, that was the best news of the day...until i went over to www.savestheday.com and read this:
October 3rd, 2005 - gettin' ready
we've been rehearsing everyday for the upcoming tour with senses fail, the early november, and say anything. we are quite excited to play for all y'all citizens of outer space. and if you haven't heard/seen say anything, you should do yourself a favor and pick up their record before coming to the show. that's the new shit. good stuff. so, we've got a couple surprizes up our sleeve for this tour. you can expect to hear a song that we recorded seven years ago which has not been played in ages , AND a song from through being cool that many of you have been requesting for years! plus tons of your favorite songs. you'll be happy, we promise. this fall, we'll make your dreams come true. can't wait to see you all there. it's gonna be sweet! peace out, dawgs. chris
"jodie," perhaps? a lot of people seem to be saying "you vandal," which would also be amazing. i would love to hear "banned from the back porch." there are so many possibilities, and i basically started tearing up when i considered all of them. i don't think that these guys will ever flat-out disappoint me. and as of today, it is seventeen days til saves the day fest '05 begins. for those who don't know, i am attending the following:
friday, 10/21: philadelphia, pa at the electric factory
saturday, 10/22: atlantic city, nj at house of blues
tuesday, 10/25: new york city at irving plaza
monday, 10/31: allentown, pa at crocodile rock
i'm also considering a couple more, depending on how those go, but i highly doubt it. but i am sure most of you can guess where i am considering going this upcoming winter break...hahahaha. i am sooo going to get yelled at.
today is october 4th. in ten days, it will be my myspace's second birthday. more importantly, however - the five year anniversary of my first time seeing saves the day. and by the end of this tour, i think i will be up to 27. <3 :)
|
|
| this tragic fairytale |
[10.01.05 | 6:58 AM] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
sleepy |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Junction 18 - Lost In Adeline |
] |
let's pretend this was written on friday night and not saturday morning. sorry, i haven't slept yet.
i am going ipod crazy today. made some playlists (and currently working on another), organized a lot of stuff, deleted stuff that i don't need. fixed capitalization. now i'm uploading some stuff. i don't know why playing with my ipod makes me feel productive, but doing schoolwork does not.
the past week was really busy, but i had a lot of fun.
on tuesday, becca and i ended up trekking down to glassboro to see kevin devine (and amo!) at rowan. it started at 9:00, which was nice because we didn't have to do too much rushing beforehand. parking was a bitch, but after a pretty long walk and a phone call to amo, we found the student center. nice campus, my goodness. i'd go there if it wasn't so far away from real life. i don't think there's anything to do around rowan except go to wawa. well, unless you're a farmer. anyway, found amo and stacy! i love chieftain reunions. met amo's roommate, megan, who seems really nice. also saw brad! and jen. of course, kevin was soooo good. of course, when isn't he? he opened with "tapdance," and i died. and played a bunch of other good stuff. paul (pablo) played with him for a bit too. and they played "androgynous" - becca and i were so excited, haha. after the set, we spoke with some people for awhile. left for a wawa picnic (which is seemingly becoming tradition) and then came back home pretty late.
wednesday night was the hurricance katrina benefit at starland. drove mike, carla, and carla's friend vicki. wawa trip #1. got to starland. the honorary title (which was actually just jarrod solo) was good, of course. the new amsterdams (just matt) were amazing, as expected. and yeah, he played "out of reach" and it was an overly emotional experience for me. soooo good. during coheed, i went to look at merch. let me say, i really hate when people treat me like some typical fangirl. i went to buy the honorary title cd, and the girl was trying to be nice, i guess, but she came off as completely degrading. pissed me off so bad. went back to the main room and watched a couple of coheed songs. dashboard came on and played for about an hour and forty-five minutes, and it was fucking unbelievable. i could not have asked for a better setlist (well, unless he had added "living in your letters"). and i cried, fuck you. it was so good, i'm so glad i went. i know a lot of people asked for a setlist:
i am missing
the sharp hint of new tears
for you to notice
remember to breathe
so impossible
a plain morning
ghost of a good thing
as lovers go
the places you have come to fear the most
carry this picture
(new song)
the good fight
saints and sailors
the brilliant dance
turpentine chaser
screaming infidelities
again i go unnoticed
swiss army romance
this bitter pill
encore:
the best deceptions
vindicated
hands down
after the show, i handed out stuff for atlantic records. thanks to mike and bex for your help! we found jaclynn and her friends and talked to them for a bit. left starland for wawa trip #2, and another wawa picnic. mmm. i love subs. took bex and mike home, came home and did a little work, and went to bed.
last night was nightmare of you at rutgers. the other bands were pretty bad, i thought. hung out with bex and brian riggio at the core table for most of the night. laughed at bands and people. it seemed like forever for nightmare of you to go on. everyone was pretty sure they were out drinking for the whole night, and their merch table reeked of alcohol. brian shott showed up right before nightmare. they were really good. brandon has some questionable dance moves, but they were funny. i got to see b&n george two days in a row! that was exciting, hehe. after the show, bex and i cleaned up. i bought a shirt, and then i took the brians to taco bell. brian riggio (how am i supposed to spell your nickname? b-ridge? i don't know!) was nice enough to let us eat at his dorm. good times. dropped brian shott off at busch, came home, and went to sleep.
today all day was school, and i took a five hour nap. then lauren and i went to mpd, it was a lot of fun. our waiter was a smartass. wee.
i'm listening to junction 18. i used to love this band. they're still together, and i want them to come back here.
|
|
| it doesn't make it easier... |
[09.29.05 | 9:17 AM] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 exhausted |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Dashboard Confessional - A Plain Morning |
] |
last night was absolutely incredible. the past two nights were incredible. i have amazing friends, i saw awesome music, and i ate really good food.
here comes the calculus test to completely reverse any chance of a good mood today.
|
|
| ilovethisbandmorethananythingintheworld. |
[09.26.05 | 10:33 PM] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 content |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Saves the Day - Sell My Old Clothes, I'm Off to Heaven |
] |
if you love me, click here.
i had a pretty decent weekend, followed by a pretty awesome monday. things are seemingly well right now, but i know i'll find an excuse to hate everything soon.
honestly, i don't remember what i did on friday. that is horrible. it could be because i didn't do anything, but if not, then i am concerned. i'm actually virtually positive that i napped and watched "anchorman," because my mom was nice enough to buy it for me. school has really fucked up (aka normalized) my sleeping pattern. it sucks going to bed early on a friday night.
because i went to bed early on friday night, i woke up at fucking 9:30am on saturday. lounged around the house for quite awhile, and performed my usual saturday morning food network ritual. i don't know if i mentioned, but i finally received my dave lieberman and giada de laurentiis cookbooks. they look so good, and i can't wait to actually make some of the recipes. i love food.
bex and i had our radio show at 4:00, as usual. ben joined us in the studio, and i think we had a grand old time (as we usually do). the bad news, however, is that the rock cafe no longer sells their amazing curly fries! they were the best curly fries ever, so this is quite a disappointment. anyway, becca and i had discussed the possibility of going to pank for dinner, and we actually executed this idea after bullshitting in the lsc parking lot for about 45 minutes or so. we went back to her house to take care of her kitties, and then had a delicious chicken fingers dinner at pank. took bex home, and came back to my house for the first poker night in awhile.
george, melissa, bex, and lunchbox all came over and met my aunt, who was sleeping over. she's nuts, i love her. watched the pablo francisco dvd. then played some poker. the excitement wore off relatively early because george wasn't feeling well at all. george, melissa, and bex all left around the same time. for a couple of hours, brian and i played blind man's five-card, which we have affectionately renamed, "aw fuck!: i am going to piss my pants (you're a fucker)." it's pretty much the most amazing game ever, i'd say. i hope we get to play some more poker again soon, and i especially hope george begins to feel better soon. i'm really worried about him.
yesterday, went to lunch at olive garden with the family, elaine, and milt. felt sick for a good part of the day. i think i took a nap, but i don't remember. i've been napping so much that it's hard to keep track of my days.
today, on the other hand, was awesome:
- woke up around 10:30
- went to becca's for an ipod session
- lunch at tgifriday's
- biology let out twenty minutes early!
- call from atlantic records, telling me i can get into dashboard for free on wednesday
- second check from the syndicate
- super awesome, comfy nap
- cupcakes
this week should be kind of awesome, if everything goes as planned:
tuesday: kevin devine at rowan (not looking likely), otherwise marathon meeting
wednesday: dashboard confessional, coheed and cambria (acoustic), the new amsterdams, the honorary title at starland. probably one of the best shows i'll go to this year.
thursday: nightmare of you at rutgers.
tomorrow, i have an italian quiz that i should do a small amount of studying for before i go to sleep. i also have calc homework that is optional, but it might be a good idea to start doing that stuff if i actually want to pass this class. i need to pass the class if i am going to go to rutgers next year. ugh, i really hate thinking about this stuff...
|
|
| the best kind of nation is a donation. |
[09.23.05 | 11:01 PM] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 hot |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Kevin Devine - Yr Damned Ol' Dad |
] |
most of you know that i have been involved with radio for a very long time - since my freshman year of high school. i'm currently a sophomore in college.
we have been working on getting this done for years, and it is finally happening now. on october 15-16, my radio station will be hosting the tower of tomorrow radio marathon at woodbridge center mall. our goal is to raise $60,000 to move our tower, increasing our signal by 85%. that is 200,000 potential new listeners.
finally, our online donation system is up. if you can, please donate anything -- every dollar counts. it would mean the world to me. we're nowhere near our goal right now, and we can use all of the help you can give us.
visit my personal donation page
thanks guys, i appreciate it.
|
|
| blahdy blah. |
[09.21.05 | 1:31 AM] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
exhausted |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
i don't listen to music anymore. |
] |
( interests meme )
last week started off shitty, and drastically improved by the end of the week. i went to six shows in seven days, which was pretty intense. barely slept all last week, and that pattern seems to be slightly improving this week.
on saturday, i went to the city for the drive-thru cmj show at the avalon. lauren and i met kyle at metropark, we left, and got to the avalon right before houston calls started. i will never understand the hype about that band, but they are undeniably attractive (well, three of them). watched socratic and i am the avalanche, and then basically hung around for the rest of the night. i had a much better time this year than i did last year. last year, i was miserable for the most part. but on saturday, i stuck with allison and carla. we hung around in the merch room, where everyone was dancing. cute guys were in there, so that was a perk. i definitely had a blast. after everyone got kicked out of the venue, allison, carla, lauren, kyle, and i went to get some pizza from the "crispy pizza cafe" -- the pizza definitely lived up to its crispy reputation. lots of fun there, jurassic park, the usual.
guess what i did on sunday? saw the 40-year-old virgin again! and then went to dinner with ken, diane, and bobbi. it was fun, but i wasn't too hungry. then i went to the doctor because i needed refills on my pills.
i had class both yesterday and today. there is this really dumb girl in my biology class, and i am bonding with my surrounding classmates by laughing at her expense. i know it's mean, but the girl really is stupid. today, i talked to this kid brad, and we're discussing starting a betting league based on her stupid comments. but we wouldn't be betting against anyone, because we all think she's dumb. every time she raises her hand, george, brad, and i all look at each other and laugh. the worst was yesterday (monday) when she asked, "my boyfriend told me there's an animal called a liger..." and continued to describe it. the teacher looked at her in great disbelief, and then basically pwn3d her. my professor for that class is awesome.
tonight was a marathon meeting. besides lasting too long and feeling completely overwhelmed and disorganized, i think it went pretty well.
|
|
| weeeeeee! |
[09.20.05 | 6:41 PM] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
excited |
] |
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASHLEIGH ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) electric_skies!!!
( politics test... )
okay, so from autumn to ashes and biology are going to be at starland on november 12th...
WITH FUCKING BOY SETS FIRE!!!!
AHHHHHHHHH<33333333333333
okay, i am going to write a real entry in a a few minutes.
|
|
| navigation |
| [ |
viewing |
| |
most recent entries |
] |
| [ |
go |
| |
earlier |
] |
|
|
|
|
cold